September 16th, 2013
|01:37 pm - more minutia |
done 3 loads of laundry
scooped the cat box
swept the kitchen floor
taken out the trash, compost, and recycle
loaded and run the dishwasher
and I'm still feeling restless and unaccomplished. Feh. Not even the purring cat is calming me.
I feel like I'm waiting for something, though I couldn't tell you what it is. Oh, wait. Maybe it's this wave of tired. I was thinking of walking to the library, but my book is still in transit, so perhaps I will put that off until tomorrow. I didn't sleep well last night; I think I'll try for a nap now instead. Let the dryer and the dishwasher hum me to sleep. Hey, I even have a clean pillowcase now, post-laundry...
The seasons are changing too. I always have a wave of apprehension and excitement in September, even with no school. I've also been having anxiety dreams of discovering finals that I haven't studied for, plays where I haven't memorized and lines, dances where lim going in the other direction from anyone else...
|Date:||September 19th, 2013 02:47 pm (UTC)|| |
I've been having anxiety dreams where I haven't finished my thesis, or it's been retroactively rejected. I finished the damn thing in 1996. :/
The only good thing is that I have this huge sense of relief when I wake up and realize that I don't have to do that play, final, or dance.
I don't know if this all is harming me or my kids in the future either. I try to lock things up, but then my bother asked for photos on Facebook because that's the only thing he can figure out on his phone and well, there it goes. I'm back to posting kids pictures on FB. Ah well.