Joy (cithra) wrote,
Joy
cithra

diminishing returns

I haven't had a lot to say lately. I have been struggling, fatigued, and finding that a lot of online stuff brings me further down into despair. So I haven't been online as much, and have felt pretty quiet even then.

Don't know if it's meds, disease progression, or something else entirely but I find myself feeling like HAL9000 watching its faculties disappear and shut down. Small individual tiny things are ok. Often I can follow input just fine, as at a really amazing lecture I attended last night in the UW Wednesdays at the Genome series. But trying to talk about something or synthesize information to share... my output fails miserably, and so I stay silent.

I am. That's enough, or it's supposed to be. At the rate things are going, it's going to have to do.
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