May 18th, 2009
|08:52 pm - a cat-shaped hole in my heart|
I returned from treatment to find Xiombarg's vision had deteriorated badly, along with her hearing. Sadly, she was not coping with the changes well, and it was heart-wrenching to watch her confusion and consternation at her inability to navigate, or rather at the world's refusal to stay where it belonged.
Today she jumped off the left side of my mattress instead of the right and got horribly lost. I moved her food into the room by the bed and we spent the day hanging out and napping; she was happy and calm as long as I was touching her. I took her in for a quality of life assessment in the late afternoon, and as a result decided to euthanize her...
Maybe I'm evil, but watching her run into things today, and seeing how miserable she was, and listening to her cry just about broke my heart; letting her go hurts like hell but at least I know she's not in mental or physical pain.
|Date:||May 19th, 2009 04:00 am (UTC)|| |
I'm so sorry. She was a great cat.
I am so sorry. You are not evil, not at all. It's a horrible decision to have to make, but you did the right thing.
I'm so sorry for your loss. It's a tough decision to make, but it's the last kindness we can offer to creatures that have offered us so much happiness. I remember you bringing her home the first time.
I'm so sorry to hear about Xiombarg. Losing a loved pet is never easy, but you did a good thing.
Many, many condolences. We had to do the same thing for our boy Superfly right before Christmas. It's hard, but you saved her much misery.
You did what needed to be done. You have my deepest sympathies.
I'm very sorry. Xiombarg was lucky to have such a human as you.
I'm so sorry to hear that. She had a good long life with lots of love and care.
|Date:||May 19th, 2009 05:18 pm (UTC)|| |
Oh, I was so sad to read this, I'm so sorry.
It's hard to do, but you had to do what was best for her.
So sorry to hear this. She was loved and loved well, through and through. I'll never forget the drive to Seattle with her and Morphia stalking around my car like they were hunting the cars we passed. You did the right thing.
I'm so sorry for your loss. I always thought Xiombarg was an extra-special cat, a big comfort to both you and Mom.