October 27th, 2005
Cicada's designers have been raiding my subconscious again. They have a flame-colored dress in their display window right now that is straight out of a dream I had about 23 years ago.
You see, I don't really care for the color orange in clothing and barring a phase in fifth grade where I decided I loved that neon-not-quite-orange-cone color of orangy-yellow for a while, I don't think I've ever owned any.
So when I dreamed about wearing an orange dress that I thought was beautiful, it stuck in my memory. I wrote it down, I remember writing it down, and I could even dig it out of my journals if required. To call it orange is really sort of cheating, because when I say "orange" I think of pumpkins and citrus, and this dress was truly flame-colored, with depth and shimmer in the fabric. Red-orange, or even almost bluish-red-orange. And I woke up and tried to draw it, and failed miserably, so I wrote the dream down and that was that.
Until this morning I'm walking past Cicada on 1st Avenue and there is my dress, in the window. I looked on the website for a picture, and while their party dresses collection has photos of the two gowns in the window with it, I couldn't find it itself. There are a couple of dresses in the collection made from that flame-colored fabric though, if nothing else.
I don't dare ask how much it is, or whether it would be anywhere near my size. Or where the hell I would wear it to, even. It's just cool and amazing and wierd that I happened to see it there.
|Date:||October 28th, 2005 01:32 am (UTC)|| |
I love that fabric, it's unreal
I wouldn't dare ask the price either. I love looking at those dresses in the window though. Hopefully I'll get to see your dream dress before they change the window display.
I'm impressed that the website shows some models that have lots of curves. I think that I always assumed that kind of dress comes in 0 2 or 4 ;) I still wouldn't want to see the price tags I'm sure.
Party Dress Demon On Your Shoulder
awww come on :) Dare!
They might have it in your size, or better yet, be able to make you one or fit one to you!
I know they're pricey. So it really does depend on that and there are a variety of reasons for it to be the fantasy and dream rather than the actual thing hanging in your closet... BUt
BUT BUT BUT!
I know it's not LOGICAL to give in to the dress urge. Bu you know what's great about being a girl even if you're not a girly girl 99.5% of the time? The illogical urge to buy things that are pretty. Better yet, the sometimes deep need to buy something that you will probably never wear. I submit as evidence my $200 itallian shoes (on sale price mind you) to DIE DIE DIE for that I have yet to put on anywhere but in the store and prance about the house twice in. They're the prettiest green and pewter but I really have no occasion to wear them. But I'm getting to the point where they're these altar pieces of my femininity, my capriciousness, and my willingness to just do something that makes no sense but made *ME* feel better. I have had one twinge of guilt in the 4 months that I've owned them and shut that little demon right up.
I don't know why, but it was totally worth it.
I realize I'm overindulgent most of the time, but from where I'm sitting, I just wanted to say to you that there would never ever be anything wrong with buying yourself something pretty that made you feel good that probably cost too much that you may only wear once or never. (and heck, you are going to get a wedding invitation so even if you don't come you can say to yourself that you might need it for that next fall).
I'll respect you in the morning if you have a flame colored dress in your closet, even one that you maybe say 'oh forget it!' and roast coffee in some day when no one else is around.
There's nothing wrong with treating yourself once in awhile, that's all.
There's nothing wrong with having things out there that are pretty and don't disappoint you - be they in the window and never tried on or in your closet.
Oh. And. No matter how logical, intelligent, feminist, or practical you might be don't go thinking it's something you can't deserve or shouldn't want. Just sayin'
|Date:||October 28th, 2005 04:57 pm (UTC)|| |
The universe is trying to tell you something. You dreamed about this dress, loved it, then you saw it. If you don't accept this gift from the universe -- if you don't even ASK how much it is, or if it comes in your size -- the universe will think you don't care and stop giving you gifts.