bookish_girl_ and her husband came and put a large part of my chaos into order, and it feels so much better. In fact, I attribute the second (insanely long) to being able to relax more than has been the case. It's too weird, I have never been this disturbed by this sort of thing before. Now look, brain - no changing the rules just as I'm figuring them out.
Some of the dozyness (mental & physical) is probably actually physical tiredness. The last time I exercised in a program this structured was, um, eighth grade. It becomes increasingly clear that if I am put in charge of what I do for how long when, I slack off big-time. Meh - I'm still coming to terms with this whole corporeality business, anyway.
Right, I think I'm ready to go back to bed, for proper/real.